Saturday, June 27, 2020

The Soulless Human - Steiner

More than a hundred years ago, Rudolf Steiner wrote the following:
"In the future, we will eliminate the soul with medicine. Under the pretext of a 'healthy point of view', there will be a vaccine by which the human body will be treated as soon as possible directly at birth, so that the human being cannot develop the thought of the existence of soul and Spirit.
To materialistic doctors, will be entrusted with the task of removing the soul of humanity. As today, people are vaccinated against this disease or disease, so in the future, children will be vaccinated with a substance that can be produced precisely in such a way that people, thanks to this vaccination, will be immune to being subjected to the "madness" of spiritual life. He would be extremely smart, but he would not develop a conscience, and that is the true goal of some materialistic circles.
With such a vaccine, you can easily make the etheric body loose in the physical body. Once the etheric body is detached, the relationship between the universe and the etheric body would become extremely unstable, and man would become an automaton, for the physical body of man must be polished on this Earth by spiritual will. So, the vaccine becomes a kind of Ahirmanic force; man can no longer get rid of a given materialistic feeling. He becomes materialistic of constitution and can no longer rise to the spiritual".
Rudolf Steiner (1861-1925)

Wednesday, June 17, 2020

Dark Night of the Soul

In 2019 I went to Rythmia in Costa Rica to do the plant medicine ayahuasca. During my second trip in July I experienced my first "death", also called "living death" or "ego death", a form of briefly crossing over and feeling incredible intense feelings of love and bliss and sometimes some visuals.

Two weeks before my third trip in December I had a vision of sitting in front of the shaman and stating "my intention is to die." For those two weeks I kept seeing an image of a snake shedding its skin. By the time I arrived at Rythmia I knew that the intention stated was for the entire week. I did not know how it would play out and had no expectations. I experienced seven deaths over a five night period. Most of them were quite spectacular. One of them I saw myself buried and was told "know when you die that you are loved."

Since returning home from that December trip I have made some major life changes including disposing of most of my personal possessions, moving to another state to live with the woman I love and retiring from the corporate IT world after over 40 years.

Almost six months has gone by since returning and what I am experiencing is that the eight deaths on ayahuasca were only the beginning. What is happening is that I am going through a process sometimes called the Dark Night of the Soul. I have gone through periods of intense emotional release, other periods of intense dreaming. A couple of weeks ago I dreamed that I was driving in a car on a street I knew growing up, it was snowing, the car kept accelerating and went out of control and I knew that I was going to die. I screamed and woke up my partner.

What I have learned in the last six months is that all must enter the Dark Night of the Soul or spiritual crisis, perhaps many times during the cyclical process of evolution during the spiritual ascension process. This ascension process or path is what we, my partner and I, are being guided on daily and the various things we do take up most of our day.

The planet too is undergoing a global level of the Dark Night of the Planetary Collective Soul during this current "ascension cycle", a cycle which occurs once every 26,000 years, and is a fascinating concept to study and experience on a daily basis.

In meditation today I learned that my Dark Night of the Soul is going to last a while, maybe a year or more. My partner went through it a few years ago and it took her a while too. To go through this is in one sense an exercise in trust and surrender. We have surrendered to the process and that sustains us during the difficult moments.

I believe that a lot of people may be experiencing something similar during this time on our planet. If you are, hang in there. This too shall pass.

Friday, June 12, 2020

Demonizing is Not the Answer

Today we live in a culture of death and violence
Movies, TV, "the news"
Are nothing more than mind control programming
Feeding violence into our
Individual and collective subconscious
Using repetition and imagery
If we want to evolve to our potential
To ascend to our light body someday
Then we have to teach and practice
Love, Forgiveness and Compassion
At home, in the schools, in our media
We have to demand it
We have to turn off the TV
And not give Hollywood our energy
Demonizing police or any other group is not the answer
The answer is in the heart of the each human

Tuesday, June 9, 2020

One Man's Peaceful Protest

While living in Italy from 1999 to 2006 I became friends with an older gentleman named Mario Carli. Mario was in his early 80s by then, his wife had passed and he lived alone. His daughter lived an hour away in Genoa. He spoke good English and after my Italian became good we would speak in both languages.

Mario had been in World War II first fighting with the Italians and the Axis powers then, after the murder of Mussolini, fighting on the side of the Allies. During this latter time he was captured by the Germans and spent two years in a concentration camp. He did not speak of this too often.

After the war he joined the Merchant Marine and sailed across the Atlantic often and disembarked in Galveston, Texas. During the 1950s he and his mates would get off the ship in Galveston and experience the town.

He told me how they would go into town and see two lines for restaurants, rest rooms, etc. One line for whites and one line for blacks. He and his friends did not like this so they would stand in the lines for the blacks. The white folk would try to tell them that they were in the wrong line but Mario and his friends would pretend that they did not understand English.This was their peaceful protest.

For the seven years I knew Mario he always had a smile on his face except for one day. That was in 2001 when US President GW Bush and the military began bombing Iraq. I saw him that day and he told me about the concentration camp and the nightly bombing runs and the sleep deprivation, the women screaming, the children scared.

I have not seen Mario in 12 years and I am sure that he has joined his wife in spirit. He was one of my teachers in life and I tear up whenever I think of him.

We need more Mario's to show us the way.

Thursday, June 4, 2020


“I am going to pose a very serious question to our village, and county government. I have shut my business down for over 2 1/2 months now. The governor has imposed all sorts of mandates in order to open back up. He has kicked the goal post down the road multiple times. As you know, chaos is happening all over our state. Riots, protests, and looting are taking place. Our own governor came out and said he stands behind the protestors. They are being allowed to march elbow to elbow all day long. No social distancing, many are not wearing masks. Our governor is standing behind them 100%.
How is it that I have to keep my business closed and destroy my livelyhood but this is allowed to happen and is encouraged? I know I am friends with many of you, so I know you can read this post. Unlike Cuomo who gives us no notice. Unlike Cuomo who goes back on his word of "phase" openings, I will give you, the elected officials until Friday at noon to give me an answer as to why it is not only ok but promoted and gleefully accepted to be out in the streets, in the thousands rioting , disrupting traffic, destroying property, putting people's lives at risk but I can not open my legally licenced business. If an answer is not given, I will be opening up my business. No masks, no social distancing, no 50% capacity. I will no longer allow my constitutional rights to life liberty and the pursuit of happiness be trampled on.
I will no longer allow my business to be discriminated against while others break the law. A line has been drawn here. I ask ever single small businesses owner who has had enough to join me and stand up for our rights. It is time to do our own protesting and take back our rights and small businesses.”